There's 2 lines!

Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah. I took the test after being late for 3 days and the result was positive! We later went to see Dr Nooraini of Sunway Medical Center to confirm and get some medication as I have miscarriage history. I am taking it easy now as the morning sickness is slowly kicking in. Imagine, if I had carried all my pregnancies, I would have 3 kids by now. Danial just turned 3 and he's as ready as ever to become a big brother. He keeps calling himself 'Abang', isn't that great?!

One advantage of sending Danial to daycare

I am very proud of Danial. He's not even three yet full of surprises. One fine day, as we're about to have our dinner, Danial just lift his hands and recite doa makan perfectly! Both Azrai and I were astound. My little ustaz. Alhamdulillah, God is great. Our decision to send him to daycare and particularly Generasi is the right decision. He couldn't have started this early had he been at home and raised by a bibik (Indonesian nanny). Yes, there were difficult times when he catches flu, get a fever, coughs, and when his daycare had to be quarantined when there were cases of HFM but we rose to the occasion and ovecomed them. What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger.

Now I'm injecting the positive mental training to Danial. After the GSC we attended in PD end of August, I practise my success mantra with Danial. Everyday, we'll say 'I'm the best' together. Several times a day. Especially when he starts thumb sucking. It's also a neat trick to get him to stop thumb sucking because when we say our mantra, we have to show both thumbs up. 100% commitment. Maybe he's too young to understand it but it's not too early for the magic of positive thinking to come into play. Tiger Woods, is one that has been exposed to positive mental training from young. When I inculcate the positive mental training to Danial, he'd grow up to reach his full potentials. 100% all the time. Saying the mantra with Danial helps me to give 100% everyday. I have no excuse if I want to make it. I have big goals for myself, for my family. I am the best and I'll definitely make it!

Another milestone for Danial was celebrating his independence by going into the kids' play area in IKEA without parental supervision. Since he's almost three, I thought it's OK to give him a small dose of independence. We went to IKEA last saturday to break fast. We had to go early to get coupons for the break fast buffet so we were there at 6 pm. I signed Danial in 10 minutes after that while Azrai queued for the coupons. He was very eager to go in and didn't even look back when they let him in. I was the one who hesitated and hung around, peeping through the windows to see how he was doing. He went berserk the first few minutes into the play area, trying on anything he can get his hands on. He dived into the pool of balls head first! How my heart burst with pride to see my little hero handled his independence. I was confident enough to leave him there to enjoy himself. After all, it's only for an hour.

How long did his confidence last? I think give and take 15 minutes after I left him and he couldn't see me peeping and peering through the glass. I was reading my book when I decided to check my mobile. True enough, I had a missed call from IKEA. Unruffled, I went to collect Danial. The staff said Danial cried but calmed down when they put him at one corner near one of the staff. He was glad that we came back for him and was ready to go with us. Unlike the other times where we had to pull him out kicking and screaming because he's not done playing. You might say it's a disaster but I still feel it's an accomplishment. Even big kids cry when they are left on their own say when they go to boarding school or away from their parents for the first time. This simply means that Danial needs his mommy and daddy and we'll be there for him, always. His life lesson, even when his alone, he's not alone, we are always there for him.

A wedding

It's the beginning of the school holidays which marks the beginning of the kenduri kawin season. To kick it off, we went to Annisa and Shafiq's wedding reception in Gombak. Coordination was totally haywire from the word go but then who cares so I don't want to even go there. The only person who's totally oblivious of the chaos is Danial. He has a blast wherever he goes all the time. That's the best of child's innocence. As for me, I'm sad that somebody is too proud to come down from her pedestal even in the event of someone's passing. But life goes on. I can only hope that one day she can find it in her heart to forgive.

Every thing reminds me of him

I was on my way to Putrajaya to meet with Kak Haz and go visit Boy's new baby, baby Hazim. I put on my earphones to play some music on my HTC. I just recently added a new playlist which I titled "Blast from the past" which happened together with my quest to put all my childhood pics on flickr to immortalize the memories of my dad. Then one song started playing which reminds me so much of my dad. It's his 'lagu wajib' if he sings karaoke and its "widuri" by Broery Marantika. I can just see him singing the song with his ala Broery imitation. Funny how you the memory can make you smile and feel sad at the same time. Smile because it's good to have the memories but sad because it's all I have left.

Happy Father's Day

Fathers and children
Originally uploaded by Danial Raziq

We celebrated Father's day yesterday, Saturday, 14th June2008at Aunty Zizah's place. Seen here are all the celebrated fathers. I'll use the terms that Danial would use to address them; Datuk with his sons; Azrai (Danial's Babah) holding Danial and Uncle Hazlan and his two girls; Batrisya and Sabrina; his sons-in-law, Uncle Rizal and baby Isabel and Uncle Ghaz with twins Alayna and Natasha.