Looking cool in shades

The weather is getting hotter and hotter and Danial is more aware of the need to wear shades. He's been using Azrai's old Okleys which is way to big for him. So when we went out on our weekend outing to Midvalley, we checked out Toys R Us for a cool shades for him. They do say 'A picture is worth a thousand words' and I am blogging from a phone.

Atuk, a simple man

My atuk (grandfather) went into a coma when he didn't wake up from sleep on Friday (18 January 2008). My aunt took him to the hospital and I went to see him only the next day. I thought I'd be indifferent as I wasn't close to him. But I was sad to see the condition he was in. I couldn't say much but before I left, I held his hand and told him to get better. That was the last thing I said to him before he took his lastbreath.



We got the news a few minutes past midnight on Sunday. Adik went to Seremban to help papa with atuk and everything. Danial has a temperature. We had to take him to Dr. Chan before balik kampung. Adik and papa called me several times to find out where we were but we couldn't be there soon enough as there was quite a number of patients waiting to see the doctor before it's Danial's turn.



We reached kampung at almost 11am. I managed to kiss atuk goodbye one last time. He looked so peaceful and serene. So, beautiful. I tried hard to fought back my tears. They waited a while for Ira as she was driving from Kerteh. When everybody have given their final respect to Atuk, they finish up and kapan him. I'm glad that there were many to perform sembahyang jenazah for Atuk.



Adik was the real super trooper for the day. He did everthing from mandikan atuk, bersihkan dia and kapankan dia sampai ke turunkan atuk ke liang lahad. At least ada sorang cucu lelaki yang dapat buat all that for atuk.

I guess I'm sad because I take the blame for ignoring atuk all these while too. He's such a simple guy who doesn't ask for much. Maybe someone to talk to especially when we balik kampung for raya. Banyak rasa terkilan because I could have done something to make him feel he's part of the family rather than an outcast. I feel that he died a broken hearted man and felt unloved. It's easy to point to Mak Su and Nenek and say how cruel they have been treating Atuk all his life. But I didn't do anything to stand up for him.

I know that Atuk is in a better place now. Allah lebih sayangkan dia and semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh Atuk dan masukkan dia di dalam golongan orang yang beriman. For Atuk, I know I should have said it long ago that I love you. You're the best Atuk I've ever known...